God bless u all. Tears are falling from reading everyoneâs quote, I lost my son in law 4 years ago to suicide, stabbing himself over 100 times, he left behind my 2 granddaughters age 5 and 9.. they still mourn , the youngest granddaughter apologizes to her mom over and over again.. and as for my daughter she lost her first boyfriend to a homicide and then her husband to suicide.. the pain I feel with standing behind my daughter and granddaughters, I still cry, it seems as if it will never ever get easier.. Rose Marie VanDee April 11, 2018 at 11:58 pm Reply. He was my stepson, but I’d raised him since 18 months old. I’m married and have 2 kids. That being said, we can also try to alleviate that grief a bit through encouragement in the form of grief quotes. I am always just a phone call away. But one does not replace another. I know I will be with my lost loves one day and if they actually do see me grieving why can’t I feel them? I suggest you check out this article: https://whatsyourgrief.com/grieving-suicide-death/ I’m hoping this community brings you some comfort by showing you that you’re not alone. I didn’t even get to tell him i love him. This grief bit isn’t for the weak at heart. charlotte mari July 20, 2018 at 1:27 pm Reply. Shine your eternal light onto my soul and let me feel the joy of your love. The hardest part is that we will miss them, but in time. The one person who could help me through grief was the one who was gone. Next the temporary marriage created a wonderful sis in law of 12 years and she helped me so much mentally. Your story … is my story… and reading your words is like reading my mind. I honestly don’t know how to function. As a friend pointed out, this is the second “first anniversary” of his death, something I had not realized, because like my friend’s father’s death, it happened on a Holiday that changes dates from year to year. Sunny Aman May 26, 2017 at 5:45 am Reply. He fought so hard for 2 years, he loved his life, our cats and he loved me. I can’t believe she’s gone. I lost my husband from a mountain accident last May – he fell down a steep slope, in the snow. Bless all our lost loves and us-I try to remember they don’t miss us-they don’t know why we are sad, all they know now is happiness and peace-they are with all our others we lost. Hannah December 9, 2018 at 6:44 pm Reply. I feel angry at others obvious discomfort when I speak of my son so I now grow quiet and that isn’t good for them either b/c then I am quiet… so now I have learned to sit and listen with a smile as they chatter on about their children… Oh…. He looked well after us 4 children. Each day I live is one day closer to him. she left at the worst time as I had lost my dad. Her death has left such a big hole in my heart. I know that none of us are getting out alive, and this is the way of the world, but I feel so cheated, so bereft. She never got that chance though because it was to late. What brings me comfort is knowing I was able to care for him at home. How scared she must have been. Required fields are marked *. It changes over time but does not end. He was not a nice person – to anyone and , as I explained to my 7 year old – he did not want to be a daddy. It was a great time, in its way; just me and Mammy in the old familiar family home, walking the coast and country together every day, a little shopping, lunches and afternoon teas, but mostly, walking sea and hill and dale, talking, admiring over and over the sky, the waves, the trees, the seasonal changes; and over the same homely memories. The pain is just too much to handle to the extent that i wish i could have been the one in her place .She might have passed away along time ago but my heart will never heal from that because everyday feels like her death happened a few hours ago.I will always love my mother . One of my 8 yr old sons found him. video marketing sacramento March 19, 2019 at 5:08 pm Reply. The grieving for them was a suffering that slowly took them. You are so strong and it may seem pointless but you are strength for someone…I know it. His glasses were under the couch. Pat Brennan June 17, 2018 at 11:31 am Reply. Somehow he had made it to his bedroom. Genevieve February 10, 2015 at 5:32 pm Reply, Thanks for these quotes – I’m crying now. Sending you love â¥ï¸, Shelley L Dumire October 25, 2020 at 12:18 pm Reply. We had a great time! I was married for almost 39 years. But the different I WANT can’t happen. Sorry for your loss of your father. She thought I was great and I thought she was. We function but I am unable to enjoy anything. Now I’m mourning the loss of my Dad whilst trying to study fulltime and raise my 3 kids on my own. How can I do all of that and try to get thru each day without her. He had just told me while I was rubbing his little hand that he was worried about his dad, and did I know where he was? Guilt for not knowing he had heart problems, guilt for not being there when he died, guilt for every time we argued and I didn’t let it go. Then we got over ourselves. We had just begun entering a new adult-adult gentler more expressive era of knowing and hearing and telling. Top synonyms for grief (other words for grief) are sorrow, heartbreak and misery. The next day he was found dead by his best friend, who was also his landlord. You will never leave my heart and my love for you will never fade. Kay, Holly Ulrey Bell July 5, 2017 at 4:14 pm Reply. She never knew but she was very slowly losing her wits to dementia. These are fucking terrible. The different I WANT is to drive to him after the service. I have PTSD from the loss of the love of my life 20 years ago- we were so young-I blame myself for not going with him that day. Itâs terrible to know that nobody will be much bereft for long if I die. We had so many plans, places we were going to see, looking forward to having time together just the 2 of us…but now I must move forward alone. No need to show your stupidity…. Leon. This is going to be one of the hardest things in my life to come to terms with. The only info I heard about you is that you went to jail or just now that Charlie died. I didn’t even get a chance to process it becuase he died very fast. People sometimes take me for fifteen years or so less and I am fit and healthy and slim and up to my virtues still had modeling offers so Iâm not old, old; yet I am. Today is Jason’s birthday. But your post has given me a comfort, knowing that another knows. The Best Things to Say to Someone in Grief. I love you babe! I doubted he could understand me. With only roughly 6 hours of sleep in the past 4 days and only hours since her passing, my grief is still fresh but I wanted to reply to your comment because like you my mom was a part of my daily life. My partner shared in the immediate tragedy but I fear he became bored and impatient and maybe ultimately disgusted by the depth of my grief. It would have been our 1st anniversay in 2 weeks ! At his funeral, all the other attorneys and judges said what a kind, gentle man he was. His smell, his smile, his voice,his touch….I feel sick to my stomach and sometimes I just don’t want to be here. Just the thought of having to face another day and try to continue to work so I can have a roof over my head fills me with fear and dread. To be there in time to help him with his illness, to call for medical help, to get him on his side so he wouldn’t drown on his vomit, but most of all to tell him I still love him, and always will. It is well with my soul. My husband passed away on January 18, 2016 and then my Mom passed away on January 23, 2016. I’m reaching out because we have something in common, which is wanting a better future for ourselves. It’s living hell. Dear Susan- I cannot begin to comprehend how you feel. My son Dougie passed away 5 years ago. Yes lots of feelings can co-exist, some time I even feel I am just free! Me. No one would understand this. Then I realize that I am just thinking crazy and I fall apart all over again. Never really spoken of. I put on my make up. It all seemed so trite and reductive we decided not to add to the noise. She was gone. She always called me “Prince”…”My King”…”Daddy”…never my name, never. I nursed him for a year. I touched her beautiful face-to my surprise-she opened her eyes and smiled like I remember seeing her. Those are the last words he spoke to me …he passed away in the emergency room . I was all lopsided and broken without her. A few minutes later he came up to my head & curled up around me cuddling up to my face not minding the tears and put his face close to mine and there he stayed until quite a long while later I cried myself to sleep. My boyfriend Charlie passed away suddenly yesterday evening 10/03/2019 .. We were together for just over 9 YEARS. I was by his side as much as I could handle it but it was a Sunday (we had been in car n boat accidents and was always blessed) he was going with the owner and an eye doctor plus they had nitrox. Gradually, you will learn acquaintance With the invisible form of your departed; And, when the work of grief is done, The wound of loss will heal And you will have learned To wean your eyes From that gap in the air And be able to enter the hearth The bond of love will bring us together again! Today is the first anniversary of my ex-husband’s death. I lost my husband on February 12, 2019 to pancreatic and liver cancer. Bad feelings started coming (which happened to be the approx time my husband was left down on the 3rd dive in the middle grounds-just cuz they wanted him to get a large hogfin – duh the owner of the boat and the doc did the 3rd deep dive with nitrox- needless to say my husband blew a cerebral and pulmonary embolism. They can also be a way to reach out to someone you know who is grieving. and my life will never be the same. Thank you for sharing your story here and I hope you don’t mind me sharing with you my story. Weâre perfect strangers yet I feel a bit closer to you now… thank you for sharing your stories, as heart wrenching as they have been… as I sit here testy eyed, mourning moly own loss, I somehow feel less alone & thatâs something. Lost my mom too. I lost my husband November 2017 we were together 52 years it’s good to know the sorrow I feel is normal like everybody I just wish I’d told him how much l loved him more times than I did ,now it’s to later but l have the memories and nothing can take them away .love you loads until we are together again. Priscella Your story compelled me to reply. I touched her beautiful face-to my surprise-she opened her eyes and smiled like I remember seeing her. Gopi patel January 28, 2020 at 1:52 am Reply. We have happy memories for difficult times. Knowing my husband would not want me to let my grief consume me helps and prayer throughout the day. This was often too physically and emotionally and psychologically wearing for me with never any break at all. I’m almost 20 years older, already broken. Thank you so much for this page its makes our burdens lighter. Not sure I will ever forgive myself. Knowing he is not suffering helps me get through the day. The different I WANT is to drive to him after the service. I do hope that one day you will find comfort and strength through other people who have been through a similar loss. God Bless. Missing my husband. After graduation I have to make my appt with the crematorium to sort out my mom’s cremation. My son was murdered one month ago today. His mom was who he felt he had left. Iâll wait like I have been but I wonât forget you. When my husband died 3 years ago I found a grief group that has helped me more than I could ever say. "A grief blessing may the sun bring you new energy every day, bringing light into the darkness of your soul may the moon … So I know pain quite well. I hope that you are actively engaging in self-care, partnering with your health care providers and looking at all the vast options to take care of you first. Sometimes we just sit for a moment in the rocking chair and hug and remember a man that meant so much to so many. Her struggle was unnoticed as she spiraled down and tragically died, still a great beauty aged 45. When you are a friend or family member of someone who is mourning the loss of their beloved spouse, you may find yourself unsure about how to share your feelings, fearful of saying the wrong thing, and uncomfortable about what you should do. There had however been an old fashioned formality, a certain kind of distance in our relationship that he and my sister and I had each newly begun to get past with him. Less than two years later, my mother died of cancer, my father in his heartache suffered a heart attack and followed my mom soon after. My son died in the ambulance. He didn’t come back. My mam had lived to dance. I just need to get month old thank you cards finished to our overwhelmingly loving community. As I sit at my bedside typing this reply he is still with me & sitting on my lap. Enjoy your blessed life living with our Jesus. Again thank you & God bless you and your mom. Tell them that they must all keep their brothers memory alive and put your pain and loss in an imaginary box and put it on a shelf. She had a vision of the resurrection one day, pointing out of the window into the garden sky, watching all the bodies going up âlike a football matchâ. Its ok for the steps to be small. I was never a bad girl, just longed for the love from her. I went home to be his nurse for a few months. I lost the person who was my gravity, when she left the world my soul left with her. Using the word generator and word unscrambler for the letters G R I E F, we unscrambled the letters to create a list of all the words found in Scrabble, Words with Friends, and Text Twist. He went out lots. Assholes. I had forgotten how much a person can cry. Nineteen years we buried Freddy and we have never really recovered. Thank you. Although death is part of everyone's life, coping with grief is one of the most uncomfortable and difficult experiences you will ever face. We were define soul mates. I fear the grief for loss of one of his only two daughters must have precipitated the illness. Bless all our lost loves and us-I try to remember they don’t miss us-they don’t know why we are sad, all they know now is happiness and peace-they are with all our others we lost. I feel I can’t bear it. It seems that you take a step forward but then two steps backwards. All this coincided with me hitting that age that suddenly sounds âold personâ. Can’t say anymore now because I can’t see the keyboard from crying .I love,love love you.